Grandma's Magic Kitchen Aid Mixer

When we were back in Ohio, we had a conversation about how I hand mixed everything, and that I couldn't even make whip cream if I wanted because I didn't own a beater of any kind. So the family said, "We'll fix that!", and gave us Grandma's Kitchen Aid Mixer.

As I was cleaning it off yesterday, I started to think about all the many many many things she made with this mixer. From cookies, to doughnuts. She made everything! Also, everything that she made was delightful and delicious. I didn't get to taste everything, but I certainly heard about it from family members.

I started to think about he magic that was in this Kitchen Aid. The magic of being able to make beautiful and tasty things for your family. People who you love. The gathering around the table eagerly waiting to take a bite from that freshly made German chocolate cake. How could you beat that kind of magic? I don't know any magician that can top this trick.

While I shined up the sturdy white Kitchen Aid mixer, I secretly hoped that the magic would rub off on me. I'v never made a cake from scratch, and I plan to tackle that very soon. I am however gifted with cookies and non-yeast breads like banana bread. I also am a little afraid of yeast, but I have no idea why. I am sure it's easy enough to work with. So I am hoping the magic will work for me, as it has for so many years for Grandma.

Returning from Ohio I realized...

When I flew to Ohio for my husband's Grandma's Funeral, I half expected heart ache and pain. Not mainly for the loss we had just been forced to accept, but I expected the family to hurt one another. From my experiances, death changes people, and changes relationships. I expected some one to hurt us deeply. As the days crept by we attended the viewing and family meals. My husband threw snappy remarks my way and I caught them with a twinge of pain. Someone else in the family, hurt someone else, and then I got hurt again, but my Mother in-law, who on any given day, we act like mother and daughter. She merely made me feel stupid for not knowing how to iron a suit. For the record, I don't iron. The only things I have ever ironed came out with creases in the wrong spot, and ended up looking worse then it started off as. So, I don't iron. And I certainly don't iron a suit that is borrowed. All of these things were little, but big in the scheme of things because of what each of us were dealing with on our own plate.

It occurred to me on the flight home, after I was able to talk to the people who caused me to be hurt that, yes death does change people. In fact it changes people in a way we can't even imagine. What makes a good strong family is if and how they pull out of those little hurtful things. We were able to talk about it and after things were put to rest it seemed to lift off the weight it once held. We seemed to meet on the other side. Stronger then ever before.

P.S. The ice-cycles could be used as weapons over there!!!!! I didn't know that God made them so big!!

A sad and happy note

With a broken heart I have to report that my Husband's Grandmother has Passed yesterday during my bout with insomnia. She lives across the country in Ohio. Out of all the people who are family out here in California, my mother in-law took it the worst. We all knew she would have the hardest time with it. She really doesn't like that she lives so far away from her family, but in the same turn she knows she built a life out here so this is how things have to be right now. 


It breaks my heart having to watch her go through the pain, and know exactly how she feels. The feelings of loosing my Dad only a year ago, and my Grandma only 7 months ago is all so fresh in my mind and heart. Sometimes I still feel it like yesterday. It also makes me sad because I only got to meet her two times. I've known my husband for 5 years (we've only been married 2 years), and I met her once when we all flew out to Ohio for a 50th Anniversary (other set of grandparents). We went back and forth to both Grandparents and I was able to meet Aunts and Uncles for the first time. It was a beautiful happy trip. I was so pleased to meet them, and get to know them. It gave me a great deal of insight as to where Tyson(my husband) came from. 


So we will be flying out of California and to Ohio in the next few days and staying there for a week. I hope to have access to the Blog while I am there. Oh, and the weather over there is going to be interesting. It's awful snow storms... and cold as cold can be. And last night I happened to catch a cold of some kind. I haven't been sick in like 2 years so it's about time. So the sad note today is we've lost a person who we love very very much.


The happy note is that I have my first "Follower" for the Blog, and my first "Comment". I am so pleased that people are enjoying my writing and my thoughts. Good and bad thoughts, I am pleased that they are receiving them in a way that makes them want to read more. From the little bit of feed back I've already gotten, it seems that I am accomplishing my goal in trying to help people understand what people with Mental Health symptoms go through, good and bad. So this only increases my desire to write even more. I feel good about it. Even though it's sometimes very hard to share what my thoughts are, I feel like it's serving a purpose. A positive purpose hopefully.


Thank you very much for reading. It means so much for me to know that there are people listening and walking this journey with me. It tells me people want to learn about these type of illnesses.


PS. There is a poll to the right, which I can not seem to figure out how to darken the font. Please take a moment to squint and try and read it. I'm sorry for that. I tried to work on it and figure out how to change the color, but couldn't, and now I don't have a lot of time to fiddle around looking for the location to change it.


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