I've been finding that simple things are choking me up. I've managed to choke back the tears, but my throat gets all closed up and I feel the sensations around my eyes welling up.
These things are so silly. I was telling my husband about this movie, and as I was telling him about it, the feelings increased. So I stopped talking and moved on to a new topic. It's happened to me several times today. I'm not sure why, but I do know that something as simple as a commercial or song can trigger this physical reaction right now.
I'd really rather not be so sensitive about things like this. It's just a movie I've only seen 10 times and I happen to own. It's only a song I've heard countless times, and managed my eyes to stay dry. But why all of a sudden these things are kicking up tears. That I do not know. Perhaps I'm coming down from a "mania episode". I really am not sure.
Finally, finally, you did mention "God."
ReplyDeleteIf God made foods, or created them, surely the same God created you, Melanie, just as you are, and your life, just as it is, and your soul, which is what sees these, your thoughts.
Well, then, know that "God is in His Heaven, and all IS right with the world:" "the Universe IS unfolding as it should;" you ARE divine.
You clearly realize that are failing to love and honor Melanie.
Well, then, it is now time to forgive her, embrace her, love her and honor her. As you begin to do this more and more, you will find that you pre-forgive, love and honor others more, too, in proportion, seeing that they, too, ARE doing their (stupid, ignorant) best, ALL THE TIME.
You are far, far, far too hard on the child of God who is Melanie. Try to accept, to forgive and to love her, and see her blossom and become daily more lovable, as she faces down her fears, all of which are illusory:
http://skdesigns.com/internet/articles/quotes/williamson/our_deepest_fear/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=psL8AITHhv0
Much love.
Tom.
Tom, thank you so much for taking time to respond to my blog and give me your input. I really took it in. I fear that though God is with me every single day in my own head and body and thoughts (because he does cross my mind daily and all the time), that I fail to show others how he effects me and how he works in my life. I did write a little about God earlier Check out
ReplyDeleteTHURSDAY, FEBRUARY 11, 2010
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
and
SATURDAY, JANUARY 30, 2010
Lovely little childhood
Sometimes the very thought of him overwhelms me. I hope that my love for him and his forgiveness can soon be guided and directed to help others see what he can do in lives and is doing. But first he is still working on my life, and preparing me to stand strong in his presence.
Thank you again Tom. I think I feel a blog coming on.