Almost lost it....close call.

Well I actually meant I almost lost my counseling place at the low cost place I mentioned in a previous posting. This counseling opportunity was a great chance for me to learn more about myself. I kind of screwed up because of my memory. I have serious issues remembering things. My memory seems to just drop out from underneath myself. I can tell myself to remember something or be somewhere 20 times and still forget. I blame it partly on the fact that I can't keep track of my days. Probably because I don't work, and I'm not focused on how much closer I can to Friday. But I know what day it is, but not really. You probably know what it kind of feels like when you are on a long vacation and forget what day it is. The only difference is that it's not just a vacation forgetful thing, it's a serious disconnect I seem to have.

So I called and told them I wouldn't come next week. Meanwhile I forgot todays appointment! I fully intended to go to todays session, but just slipped my mind and there was no time to just hurry and shower and be there. It was simply too late.

The person I talked to said that I may loose my spot. Granted I "Did" pay for the session he seemed to treate me as if he was doing me a big favor by allowing me in the program. Which I do understand partly. But I can't help that my husbands Grandma passed away. Give me a little slack. I have a mental illness which seems to affect my memory somewhat and I'm also dealing with some pretty intense stuff. Sooooo... isn't that why I NEED counseling?

Anyways, later I got to speak with my counselor and we agreed that I could only miss these two sessions and I would be allowed to continue. That the Graduate students participating (my counselor included) needed to put in their hours, and they were relying on me to be there. I was simply thankful to be able to continue. But I seriously didn't need the built trip. I'm sorry sir, but I'm not a student, I am a client, and patient. Yes, you are giving me a great financial deal, but in turn I am taking a risk on your students.

It was a close call... I almost lost my spot.