Bad day

Ugghh, I had a bad dream, which set the stage for a bad day. I hate that they can control me in a way that effects me negatively.

I dreamed that my old job asked me to come back after they already fired me. They said they weren't done with me yet, and thought I still had potential. They were wrong for firing me. I actually thought about going back. But I had to think about how unhappy I was, and the anxiety that place caused me. And I felt somehow empowered with the choice to say, "Thanks but no thanks." I mean they fired me once easily, which means they could do it again with ease. I remember telling her that I wasn't going to change, that my illness was going to be a problem, just like before and that I will still have lots of sick days. More then the average Joe. And she said she knew and I still didn't believe her. And I said no. I would not like to go back. It was not a healthy environment for me.

And then today, we've been on the phone with this particular company. You can't seem to get a hold of anyone that knows anything or can do anything right. It's frustrating to say the least. Today, I didn't pray for patience, because I used all that I had. But instead I pray for a resolution. This has gone on too long, and it's wearing on me.

Today the song of the day is.

Had a bad day -Song by Daniel Powter